Hi, I'm Ev. I'm training to become a horsewoman. These are my adventures and misadventures. I'm green as hell, but so far, so good. I'm now learning from Bo (and sometimes his wife DeDe) at D&D Ranch in Pope Valley. I am extremely lucky to have this opportunity, I feel quite blessed, and I feel that they, and horses, have really turned my life around.
Solomon is my baby- a big old flea bitten grey Appendix gelding who is very kind and way too smart! I love him so very much. He is a rescue and was meant to be co-owned rehabbed, and maybe rehomed to a good home. He turned out to be over 25 years old with injuries that ultimately do not make him riding sound, so he is retired.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Ambien night

From time to time I am able to escape this prison of perpetual pain and flesh where I know I'll never be thin enough, strong enough, pretty enough, fit enough, not crippled enough to be good enough for most people no matter how hard I push myself and battle the inevitable. I have to take ambien to sleep and it messes me up, to put it gently. It sends me flyyying but when I create art on it before bed, I don't have all the meticulous restraints that are normally in place in my mind. I can just create with no thoughts of technique or accuracy
Tonight, once the despair of the day lifted and the synthetic euphoria kicked in, I painted a bit. Is it art? Meh, it felt good to get it out.

Yeah, still under the effects of the drug, of course.

Now it's time to hopefully pass out for a few hours. Ranch tomorrow, let's hope.

1 comment:

MaggieMae said...

Love the both, especially love the one of the two of you together.

It captures the way you are a team, both depending on the other...