Hi, I'm Ev. I'm training to become a horsewoman. These are my adventures and misadventures. I'm green as hell, but so far, so good. I'm now learning from Bo (and sometimes his wife DeDe) at D&D Ranch in Pope Valley. I am extremely lucky to have this opportunity, I feel quite blessed, and I feel that they, and horses, have really turned my life around.
Solomon is my baby- a big old flea bitten grey Appendix gelding who is very kind and way too smart! I love him so very much. He is a rescue and was meant to be co-owned rehabbed, and maybe rehomed to a good home. He turned out to be over 25 years old with injuries that ultimately do not make him riding sound, so he is retired.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Gah

Today is a percocet day.
I really need to remember that, while yes, I am severely overweight, that fitness is not the biggest issue. I have a permanent injury and if I aggravate it too much, it will get worse, not better. Which means that, much as I would love to act like I am a normal person who is out of shape, I really can't. Because then the next day I need help sitting up or walking to the bathroom. And there's always the potential that I'll end up needing surgery again.

But damn it, I need quality of life.

So I need to find a balance, and to figure out what I did yesterday that made my back hurt so much today. And not do it.

It's not the "oh my muscles are sore" ache. It's the moving wrong and being brought to your knees because you don't have a choice in the matter "I am injured" pain.

But still, yesterday I felt strong.

3 comments:

jeniferb said...

sorry you feel so bad today but you did look like you felt great yesterday!

Evergrey said...

Thank you- yes I did! Solomon and I managed to do quite a bit together.

littledog said...

Actually, um, you ARE strong. The painful stuff is just crap in the way to watch out for and take care of, that you will get beyond eventually.
And there's no stopping you and Sol.....